Friday, December 14th.

-My Job is shit, I don’t like my co-workers, my supervisor barely knows what he’s doing, and spends most of the day, if not the whole day watching YouTube videos. 

            I have an income, which allows  me to financially support myself, and help my out my family if they need. There are people out there, stressing over the fact that they are unemployed. This is a job, not a party; I don’t HAVE TO like my co-workers. My supervisor is lazy, yes, but at least he’s not on my fucking back. Thank You God for blessing me with a job. Thank you God for Blessing me with a NEW job. 

-I’m tired of living at home, I need my own space. Sometimes I feel like I’m suffocating around my family, and there’s no where to run or hide in our tiny apartment. I’m over our neighborhood, and the bum stroll our streets. I’m tired of the trash that sits outside on the sidewalks. I’m over seeing struggling faces on my way to the train station, and while on the train. 

         You are super fortunate to have a place to live, and with people who truly care about you. You are super fucking fortunate to have such a loving family that you can talk to whenever you need to. You pay no rent. This neighborhood made you who you are today. Like it or not. This neighborhood is a piece of you. You know your bigger picture, this neighborhood is not your forever. Its TEMPORARY. Those struggling faces, are your people. You’re purpose is helping them out of the struggle, not judging their struggles. Thank you God for Blessing me with such a loving and caring family. Thank you God for Blessing me with my own space.

-I feel stuck. Like I should be doing more, but I don’t know what, and it’s just causing me a lot of frustration. I know I need to be patient, but I don’t want to be patient. I want it NOW. I wish there was a book, outlining the course of my journey. So I could just follow it already, and get their. 

        Nothing worth having comes easy. I have to be patient. I know things will work out and play out as they’re suppose to. I have to have Faith, and Confidence in myself and in God. God has never failed me, so I need to stop doubting his process and just follow it. All things will play out as they should and when they should. They always say being on the Journey is the best part. TRUST THE PROCESS. Thank you God for Blessing me on this Journey to my Bigger Picture and my Purpose. Thank you for all paths, regardless how I feel about them, leading me to my Bigger Picture. Thank you for not giving up on me! Thank you God for ME not giving up on MYSELF!

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